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THE PROMISE

"Our God is an awesome God" is on repeat. All I can do is smile and sing this song. I'm putting my fingers to the keyboard to share why.

About a month back, I shared a bit about my recent struggles with pain, tingling and numbness in my upper extremities. It can get very intense, but usually subsides after a few days/weeks and returns to a lesser degree. The preliminary diagnosis is Thoracic Outlet Syndrome, which sounds way worse than it is! We also know I have bulging discs in my neck. But, a brain MRI revealed something I didn't expect- a small lesion or plaque. The lesion could signal a few things: Alzheimer's (unlikely considering my age), migraines, or Multiple Sclerosis

But, my eyes kept going to the words "Multiple Sclerosis" that were repeated on the report. The plaque was described as consistent with MS. The more I read, the more upset I became. I was nervous. I was scared.

My symptoms are consistent with MS and the disease was all I had on my mind. The brain MRI results meant I needed one more test. After a "tour" of MRIs, blood tests, EMG and others, next up was a lumbar puncture. We needed to rule out MS. The doctor referred to the need for the test as being to "rule out" MS, not diagnosis MS. That approach was some comfort.

But, worry was overtaking me. I couldn't help but to think of me, my family and the future I envisioned, sans MS.

Sunday morning I woke up with a cough and had no plans to attend church. But, as time went on, I kept looking at the clock debating if I had time to get ready for church and finally got in gear. God was leading me.

The guest preacher began the sermon with 2 Corinthians 12:9-10:
"But he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong."

A smile came across my face. 

The preacher also sang "Amazing Grace."  When he sang "Good has PROMISED good to me" I knew then that all is and will be okay. Nothing is finished until it is good. I am so thankful for His grace. God reminded me of His promise.

Friday came and I headed to the hospital. I was very nervous about the procedure as I had only heard horrible things about the process. But, let me reassure anyone who may have this upcoming that the procedure is not painful. I just felt pressure. The fluid withdrawal took no time and I was in recovery. I felt good about the results. I knew whatever may come that God has promised good to me. That doesn't mean I wasn't nervous about a "different" life if it was to be, but I knew I could do it.

I was told to call the physician's office for the results. So, I did. The nurse said the doctor would call if the results were abnormal. Otherwise, I would receive a paper report. Well, you might have inferred from my intro that I received a paper report in the mail. My test results are NORMAL! When I received the report I kept reading each page over and over looking for "abnormal." But, it's not there. The only word repeating is "normal." I finally told myself, "it's normal" and praised God.

My tears of fear have turned to tears of joy.

 God has promised good to me.

My husband, family and friends have prayed for me and I am so thankful. My trial is small compared to others. But, I have faith that He will provide no matter what.

Our God is an awesome God!

No matter your struggle, don't let it live your life. You live your life. And do so with Christ. Words from my parents, btw.

Praise God and God Bless!

2 comments

  1. So very thankful for these results and for YOU! God has blessed me with an amazing friend in you, and I'm so glad you can finally get back to living your life.

    Love you so very much!

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  2. Aw, thank you Hillary "PP" Edwards! You are such a blessing!

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